Stuck Between Joy And A Hard Place

I learned something interesting at a very early age: if you’re cheerful and bubbly and positive, people are more likely to help you.

This was an invaluable lesson. Since most of my life has required a great deal of struggle, this version of myself helped me survive. She helped ease the weight of being the youngest of three siblings growing up in poverty with a single mother who had chronic illness.

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Spicy Kale Chip Recipe

When I say "wake and bake" this is what I'm talkin' about! seedling I left these bad boys to dehydrate overnight and even though now my bedroom wreaks like onions and garlic it's TOTALLY worth it because I've got these spicy raw kale chips to nom on all week herb (Just kidding! They'll probably be gone by Friday...) 

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From the Void: A New Podcast by Allie, Tim & Joe

A few months ago I met Tim Rothschild. We connected because of our involvement in Soul Camp (more on this in another blog) and soon came to realize, through excessive amounts of "likes" and comments on each other's Facebook posts, that we'd probably get along great in real life, and we were right.

Tim had recently reconnected with an old acquaintance from high school, Joe Barbagallo, who had spent the past six months at an ashram in Guatemala and returned to New York to make some money before heading back for another stint on location. Joe was teaching a Bhakti yoga course that Tim was taking. And when I came into the equation it was a natural evolution that we would all end up hanging out together.

Every time we hung out, epic spiritual and esoteric discussions ensued: the nature of reality, awakening, psychedelics, polyamory, energy healing, shifting consciousness, oneness... the conversations were deep, meaningful, spiritual, and eye-opening.

And thus, a new podcast was born: From the Void.

If you're one of those Netflix binge-watchers, then I invite you to binge-listen to our podcast on SoundCloud! Check out the links below :)

Blasting love & light in your general direction,

allie


From the Void

with Joe Barbagallo, Allie Mason, and Tim Rothschild

Episode 6: Surfing the Cosmic Wave

In this episode of From the Void, we surf the cosmic wave back in time to the first recording Allie, Tim & Joe ever made together. Did you know you're riding a wave? No? Okay, never mind... forget it. Just remember, time is an only illusion, maaannnn!


Episode 5: Tools for Expansion

Tim & Joe continue the discussion of traditional and "alternative" means for the expansion of consciousness, including masturbation, coffee and Eckhart Tolle. We'd say it gets weird but we're not sure what that means anymore.

 


Episode 4: Sex Magic & Psychedelics

Joe, Allie, and Tim get together to discuss tools for consciousness expansion and naturally things get weird.

 


Episode 3: The Comedy of Awakening

In their first podcast as a trio, an attempt to demystify what it means to "awaken"leads Tim, Allie, and Joe into the exploration of conscious sex, sacred relationships and homosexuality. Allie could be a swinger, Joe shares his adventures as an international man magnet and Tim opens up to bisexuality. All in dedication to the expansion of consciousness!


Episodes 2: From the Void Part 2

In Tim & Joe's first session, the two cosmic explorers meld the perspectives of the Kabbalist and the Yogi. The discussion embraces Taoism, Hinduism, modern music, consciousness, hallucinogens and physics as the tools at hand for a generation on the cusp of realization. The fusion of their perspectives promises to take us to new depths. We're through tumbling, this is a swan dive into the void.


Episode 1: From the Void Part 1

In Tim & Joe's first session, the two cosmic explorers meld the perspectives of the Kabbalist and the Yogi. The discussion embraces Taoism, Hinduism, modern music, consciousness, hallucinogens and physics as the tools at hand for a generation on the cusp of realization. The fusion of their perspectives promises to take us to new depths. We're through tumbling, this is a swan dive into the void.

Time is an Illusion

I don't believe in time or space. There is no 'right' time. There is no 'right' place. I believe in trusting my intuition. I believe in chasing after what ignites my spirit. I believe in passionate, crazy, can't-sleep-at-night love that shakes you to your core and makes you want to question and break down every ounce of cultural conditioning and doubt you've ever had about yourself and your world. I believe the very moment when you want to harden is exactly the moment when you need to lean in and soften more than you ever have before. I believe in truth. I believe in listening. I believe in supporting. I believe in dreaming. I believe in kindness. I believe in compassion. I believe there is enough love in this world for all of us. I believe in believing. I believe in loving every part of myself, especially the parts I would rather hide. I believe I am worthy of this thing called 'bliss'. There is only here. There is only now. Breathe.

Goal Crushing

I have moments of fear, doubt and insecurity just like everyone else. I have moments where I think about my life one year, five years, ten years down the road and I become filled with anxiety and questions about how I'm going to make my dreams materialize. In these moments, I seem to forget how far I've already come. I look at my life now and how I arrived here from a tiny town of 8,000 people in rural Nova Scotia. The events that took place over the past five years I could have never predicted. Yesterday while I was walking to a client's apartment in Brooklyn, I thought to myself, "How on Earth did I get here?" It's times like these when looking back can be helpful. For me, it's a reminder that anything can happen, that I don't need to know all of the answers, the path doesn't need to be clear, I don't need to figure every little detail out right this instant. Small steps, everyday, in the direction of my dreams. Inch by inch. Everyday. I'll get there. And so will you.

|| EXPERIENCE ||

It's easy to fear what we don't know. Until we experience something for ourselves, we doubt, worry, and become anxious over imaginary negative outcomes. The ego always sends our thoughts to those fearful places. But when we lead from our hearts and brush off the BS we hear from our ego, we open ourselves up to feel more, do more, and become more. Our lives expand along with our hearts and we begin to trust our Selves and the Universe to provide us with the experiences, people, and things that we need. I resisted teaching 6am classes since I became a yoga instructor because I was afraid; that I would sleep through my alarm, that I wouldn't be able to think clearly enough that early in the morning, that I would disappoint the dedicated yogis who show up before anyone else. But today I taught my first 6am, and the truth of the matter is that it felt fantastic. Every negative thought I had leading up to today was wrong. I taught a delicious heart-opening flow honoring the full moon in Leo, and to help ease the pain of shoveling snow the past few days. And with an open heart, I continue to embody this love

Broken (a poem)

You pause

Take a deep breath

As you hold out your hands

Full of all your broken pieces

Quivering

Vulnerable

And rather than notice

Everything that fell apart

She says

How beautifully It all shimmers In the moonlight

|| GO GET IT ||

Setting goals was always a challenge for me because I tend to have a hard time making up my mind. I like to leave my options open. I like knowing that the plan can (and probably will) change, so I don't get too attached to any one idea or any one outcome. Well, in September when I started working for @lululemon, they forced me to sit with my discomfort and set my 1, 5, and 10-year goals. What happened next still blows my mind... My goals starting coming to life. Opportunities started manifesting. People and experiences seemed to magically start showing up in my life. There's power in deciding, in setting goals, in tuning into your most authentic desires and asking for them. And with that being said, #questforthepress 2015 (aka my #asana New Year's resolution) is well underway! This week I began hopping into a pike press, and pressing up with the help of my lever-leg and a block. A little shaky, but I'll get there!

|| TRY ||

You know what I think is an epidemic in this world? The idea that we need to decide things early on and that we shouldn't change our minds. We often decide our degree in high school, we choose our profession before we graduate, and we adopt religion and other beliefs largely from our parents. But what about trying new things? What about experiencing the world with a child-like curiosity and excitement? Have you ever noticed how fearless four-year-olds are? They're always eager to learn something new, to see a different perspective, to try an activity or meet someone new. I want to invite you to give yourself permission to play, be curious, get excited about life. You might end up finding something, or someone, that you're totally passionate about. And at the very least, you'll learn a lot about yourself

|| FAITH ||

During my Chi Nei Tsang treatment today, my teacher asked me, "If you could let go of one thing right now, what would it be?" I took a while to respond while she leaned heavily with her elbow into my abdomen. "I can see where I want to be, and I see where I am, but I don't know how I'm going to get from Point A to Point B." "You don't need to know." There's the power: in letting go of needing to know, in knowing that I'm not really making all of the decisions anyway, in trusting that God, or the Universe, or Oneness, or Cosmic Consciousness, is co-creating my reality and so long as my intentions are kind and pure, I'll be taken care of. Even as much as I've seen these beautiful miracles manifest right in front of my own eyes, I still come upon times when I feel challenged to keep believing. For the past month or so, my teacher has been working on my kidney/spleen/liver meridians. The kidneys are healed by zhi, wisdom: clear perception and self-understanding. The liver is mended with kindness (ren). The spleen is healed by the cultivation of xin. This can mean trust, faith, honesty, confidence, belief. These concepts are all interconnected and tied together by LOVE: clarity, kindness, and faith. Let go of fear. Be clear in your intentions. Be kind. Have faith that you'll be taken care of. You are taken care of. You are love. Choose love.

|| TRY SOMETHING NEW ||

Whether we've been doing something for a few hours, days, weeks, months or years, it's easy to find an approach we like and get stuck there. We close ourselves off to trying a new way of doing things because the way we do it now is familiar, it makes sense to us, and it's working (as far as we hope). But what if, just for today, you talk to someone and learn a new way, a new perspective, a new approach, a new way of accomplishing the same means. Sometimes you realize that whatever you think was the 'problem' you were working on was never the actual problem to begin with. Use someone else's point of view to propel yourself into self-discovery; find out WHY you do the things that you do, then ask yourself, "Is this the best way for me to achieve the result I'm looking for?" Trying a new approach might not end up working for you, but it opens you up to the possibility of trying, and allows you to look critically at your own thoughts, beliefs, patterns, and habits. Last night I started practicing hopping into a straddle handstand, with the intention of making 2015 my year to #questforthepress. Trying something new is scary and uncomfortable, but it's my belief that if you're comfortable, you're not growing. || try something new

Full Moon in Cancer

The Full Moon in Cancer offers the opportunity for us to evaluate our emotions, which are on high due to the emotional nature of the zodiacal sign, in order to move through them and take action toward liberation. It's a time to feel our emotions deeply, and mediate on what needs to change, shift, transform or be let go from our lives. This Full Moon offers us the opportunity to let go of the past and focus our attention on Oneness, Cosmic Consciousness, and our Highest Wisdom and Love. Let the light of this powerful moon transform you, changing the behaviors that keep you stuck in karmic patterns, and gently shepherding you toward heightened awareness, clarity, and intuition.

|| CHOOSE WISELY ||

A huge lesson for me this past year was in finding and choosing the right tribe. What I've learned so far: you won't find your tribe unless you put yourself out there where like-minded people gather to socialize; do something different and engage with strangers, even when you might normally feel uncomfortable doing so. Surround yourself with people who inspire you; energy and passion are contagious. Put your damn phone away and really listen; a huge part of communicating happens in the nuances of intonation and body language. Ask questions, lots of questions; the more questions you ask, the more opportunity you have to learn. Share your biggest dreams and ideas for the future; you never know who might step up to help you achieve them. Be vulnerable, raw and honest; some people might be scared away by the discomfort, but those aren't the people you need in your life anyway. Don't compare yourself to those you look up to; even if you feel like you're in different stages of life, teachings come in all shapes and forms. Express gratitude as often as possible; a simple 'thank you' can go a long way. If you wouldn't want to trade places with a person, listen respectfully, but take their advice with a grain of salt. Limit your time with anyone who doesn't support you, love you, or make you laugh; life is short and you deserve to be happy.

|| COMMIT ||

There's a saying, "Drop by drop you can create an ocean." Achieving anything is less about strength and more about consistency. Rather than trying to force the thing you're working toward, instead, gently encourage it. Overtime, by virtue of your commitment and dedication, you will gradually embody your intention, sometimes without even realizing you've made any progress at all, until one day, BAM! You nail it

New Year's Resolutions

The New Year is a great incentive to make resolutions for the year ahead. We take the time to reflect on the things that maybe didn't go so well in the past year, and look to find ways to improve or change in the year ahead. One of my favorite teachers, Pema Chödron, points out that this wanting to change is like a subtle aggression against ourselves and who we really are. So if I were to pick one thing as my resolution for this year, it would be to experience every emotion--anger, sadness, joy, excitement--with the same level of interest and curiosity. Not to run from pain, but to welcome and embrace it. To give myself permission to be resentful, or unhappy, or ridiculous, or happy, or whatever emotion is currently streaming through my body, knowing that whether I see it as 'good' or 'bad' is irrelevant, and that whatever state I'm experiencing will soon pass. That's the beauty of being in this human form. We aren't here to numb our emotions, to avoid pain at all cost, or to detach from our human experience; we are here to love it all, to connect, despite our fear, despite our feelings of unworthiness or doubt. This is what I believe is true, unconditional love. And another beautiful thing? We can make resolutions any time we want! I made a resolution back in September that I will ask the questions that I am afraid of knowing the answers to, and to say the things that make me uncomfortable, and I think those play into this bigger picture. I always say in my classes that the asanas are about finding comfort in the discomfort. The same goes for life. Wishing each of you the fullest experience of life in the coming year

|| ENLIGHTENMENT ||

Let this thought marinate for a little bit: "You are an ethereal being in a physical body enjoying a human experience." Spirituality doesn't mean denying yourself of your 'earthly tethers' and enlightenment doesn't require withdrawing to a solitary existence or hours upon hours of meditation. It means experiencing every feeling, every moment, every ounce of your Being as deeply as possible. It means embracing the guilt, anger, jealousy and sadness as eagerly as the excitement, happiness, joy and bliss. It means becoming your own best friend, lover, and biggest fan. It means indulging, experimenting, trying, failing, loving, crying. It means feeling weak, feeling strong, feeling it all, living it all, Being it all. Realize that you are in your body to have the opportunity to become inquisitive about your Self, your World; what moves you, what shakes you, what inspires you, what irritates you. Do it all. Feel it all. Be it all.